inspired

i can only say chemistry. i don't know what got me inspired.
was it the thought, the moment or just some undeniably existing force that can change even the most stubborn thing?
i just thought about the friends i have. they are friends. it's just that. i think i'm looking for more. friends to count on, who counts on you. but it doesn't matter. it doesn't.
it's just some problem kickin' in my head. i'm probably delusional, obsessive maniac. probably explains why i'm always falling for someone. haha. but that kinda ended. i don't really give a rat's ass about anything.
this is my rant space. and i feel like crap.